Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Self reflect

I am 25 this year.
Yet I am unemployed.
Have no working experience.
Currently in my last semester of my master,but it seems like I have to add another semester as my dissertation is a total mess.(InsyaAllah,try my very best to end it this semester.But the whole going-to-the-lab thing is dragging.I'm not a lab type of person.I hate it.plus the numerical modelling by using some very hard programe that i never even heard of...PFC2D,have u heard of it?? if yes,I need your help doing the coding..
Oh!and I have to go to other faculty lab to borrow their machine.like so WTH!
Why did i choose that title for my dissertation in the first place.its like digging my very own grave.I know its not good to sigh.But...*DEEP SIGH)
I spent most of my 24 hours doing the same thing..wake up-send brother to school-send brother to college-send baba to work-spend a few hours at home-pick brother from school-pick brother from college-night.
Yup!the same thing everyday.
Sometimes, I sit back...well,I lied,not sometimes but most of the times.Instead of going to the laboratory and do my research,i sit back and reflect on my life.*deep sigh*
I feel like this is my biggest mistakes.I'm digging my own grave.Why!
I should have choose something that suit me.
If life have a uturn or I can turn back time,FOR SURE I'll change everything.

And now here I am.Its a do-or-die situation.There is no way out...By hook or by crook I have to finish my study.And I think,i cant make it this semester.its all too late.Extend?? *deep sigh*

One month from now I have to submit my dissertation report,and I have no confidence of finishing it on time.I havent even start doing my experiment.Yup! I dont blame anyone else.Blame it on myself.My fat-ass are just so lazy.I admit it.I'm a slow learner and super lazy.Dah lah slow,nak lazy lagi.

How am I suppose to tell mama and baba that i cant finish my study this semester.what a waste of their money.pity em.
I pity my parent the most.How unfortunate of them to have a daughter and a firstborn that they cant rely on.Sad :(

I feel like crying as i'm blogging right now.omg!
Done.end.
Toodles!

4 comments:

Jac Farrah said...

Chill bai!

Azhar Azaz said...

Prime Ministerial candidate Anwar Ibrahims website was hacked just now! the website may be hacked but that wont keep us back.

Samuel Martin said...

Lol its gotta be BN who did this, how cheap can these politicians be. I hope everyone votes for Anwar..

Rafiq Hashim said...

He humiliates the tamil, and our culture, he doesn’t deserve to run for office in a multicultural country like ours.
http://s1347.photobucket.com/user/hawafatima/media/ZulkifliNoordin_zpsb6f35edc.jpg.html
http://youtu.be/Lj8Dp-RBokU

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